So I'm sitting here at my desk in the church office on a Saturday. Last night was our church's Trunk or Treat event and because my husband was super busy with the prep for that, he wasn't able to get the bulletin finished for Sunday, so here we are and it won't take us too long and it kinda helps that I have a few things I didn't get done for tomorrow either, that I can work on. But as is my thing, I check a couple of my fav blogs before I jump head first into my tasks and I read the salutation from this one and it's "Love Wins". And my thoughts instantly split into two teams as the words register in my brain. The one team says - no screams "That's bull crap" and then the other team in all their holiness whispers "Yes it does, if you'll let it" and I'm suddenly angry and crying. Lord, I hope nobody comes into the building right now. Picture it . . . lady in desperate need of a dye job with 1/2 inch gray new growth, eyeshadow on but no lips, sitting at desk behind closed doctors office type window crying and smiling. This is one of those moments when I wonder if I'm bi-polar. (I say that with all sincerity and with no disrespect to those who are). I just was so angry last night with some things that happened and I wanted to let it go and move on, the Bible trained part of my brain says that's what I'm supposed to do, but this other part just wants people to take responsibility for their actions and words. If God is gonna hold me accountable I think He should hold them accountable. UGH! (That's a HUGE Charlie Brownish UGH!) Interpersonal relationships are such . . . I can't swear . . . I thought of one that fit, but I can't swear . . . their such . . . HARD STUFF.
Man, I wish I were back on the road with my folks, livin' in a bus, moving everyday, no interpersonal relationships required or expected . . . those were the days of easy livin'.
Or were they?
branden's wife
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